- The Long Lens: A Photographer's Journey of Learning and Self-Reflection
I've been in photography since I was in High School, which dating myself, was about 25 yrs ago. I first went to film school, then I went to photography school. This was a major secondary interest for me after novel writing for just about the vast majority of my life. I've read probably 100 photography books, watched 1000s of videos on the craft. What I'm saying is, I should just be an absolute pro by now.
And don't get me wrong, I have taken some impressive photos from time to time. I like two things, landscapes, and studio work that draws upon my film school background, so think more in the ballpark of like Gregory Crewdson. Hell, I've sunk in total probably $20k over the years on various shoots, hiring models, makeup artists, hair stylists, getting wardrobes and set dressing. And out of like 8 shoots, maybe 2 of them were any good.
And yet, the real problem is, I feel like anytime I have had good results, it's almost been down to luck. And yet, I can hire a wedding photographer and while yes, they are curating, they're still giving great work. I'd fumble with settings, not know the right ones, every other photo under those lighting conditions would be hit or miss.
I have friends or family who have asked me for photoshoots because they see the work hanging on my walls or uploaded digitally and think, let's hire aniform! But every single time, I deliver terrible results. I've got all the lights that many here would envy and yet I am useless with them. I could make a softbox shot look ugly. I'm mostly just "in the dark" all the time, fumbling around my gear like a fool.
I needed some product photos and I thought, well of course, I'm a photographer, I'll do my own product photos! It took me ages to get everything dialed in, it looked terrible. So, I hired a product photographer and they were just in command. Put a light here, arrange it like this, and voila! A commercial-ready image.
I suppose my point is, I've got all the gear, got years of schooling, and the truth is, none of it matters. I just don't think I have the skills for this craft. And I'd bet if you asked to see some examples, you'd come back with, these are great, you're too hard on yourself. But what I see behind the scenes is the inconsistency. On one shoot I luck out, get fantastic shots, but on the very next one even following the same formula, it's trash. If you as a portrait photographer went to one client and then to the next with the work being either great or sloppy, depending on the day, you'd be out of work.
I think I'm just getting to a point, 30+ yrs into this that I wasn't meant to do it, even as a hobby and should have just put my money into something else entirely. I suppose I'm just making this post as a sort of confession, haha. But, I do wonder if maybe there are others who feel similarly like imposters.
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- Beyond the Lens: Finding Your Next Chapter After Photography
I feel like there are endless posts from people wanting to know how to get started or how to grow their business. I'm on the opposite side of the photography spectrum. I'm done. I don't enjoy it anymore and I can't stand my clients. I do realize how fortunate I am to make enough to only work 3 months out of the year, and have clients around the world. However the shallowness of society and the abundance of people booking me for the sake of social media has me at my breaking point. I refuse to use my skills for mindless content and am ready to hang up my camera after 15 years. This biggest question is, wth do I do now?
I started out doing high profile event photography, photographing everyone from Jay Z to Versace, royal events, UN conferences, etc. That shifted to destination photography, documenting elaborate engagements around the world and vacations and honeymoons in the world's most exotic places. While for some that seems like a dream, it is beyond shallow. These people simply use the photos to show off and I feel like I can do something better with my time. However photography is all I know. I'm 39, got my first camera at the age of 10, started as a freelance photographer at Versace at 23 and built my own business at 25. I don't exactly have the credentials to do anything else but I sincerely hate my job and want to do something else. Any advice?
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- Finding the Joy: Reclaiming Creativity Beyond Post-Processing
lots to unpack here...
i've been shooting for over 15 years, most of that time "professionally"- yes, people have actually (repeatedly) paid me...
but i feel like a massive hack, because in all those years, i actually don't know very much at all about photography. i'm also a musician and suffer the same thing there- 20 years playing my instrument, yet i'm a complete hack... i don't know any technique/theory, only get by via feel and pray for "happy accidents".
that's kind of an aside and more pertaining to the actual shooting process itself though rather than the reason why i'm posting here today, which is the stuff goes on after all that, and that is post-processing.
being that i'm majority self-taught (in all aspects of photography), i never learned the proper way to post-process (or manage data).
my process is as such:
-insert memory card into card reader
-open the folder on my desktop (i shoot jpeg + raw, only use the jpeg's to preview)
-make my selections using coloured tags
-open said selections in camera raw and "batch edit" as much as possible there, but usually make some individual tweaks
-open files in photoshop
-resize and start retouching, not working in layers, no idea about masks, etc., just all in one go/on one layer, using healing brush and clone stamp for 99% of my retouching work... then i use some plugin my old assistant installed years ago called "skin by sparklestock", which evens/smooths things out with the skin- i usually dial it down to 20-30% opacity depending on the image.
-once that retouch bit is done, if i really really care, i'll use selective colour to really dial it in to where i want, then play in curves and colour balance, etc.
-once i'm more or less "done", i then run the image thru camera raw again to make some additional tweaks, usually clarity and something with shadows + blacks
-then i do one more quick editing session in photoshop, usually also creating a black and white copy at this point, adding grain (ideally to cover up my mediocre retouching).
-done
i don't batch edit, but do this with every single picture i intend to edit from a session, so each photo ends up taking an hour or sometimes more, and it's just become so incredibly draining, to the point it's really sucked all the joy out of shooting for me... i no longer look forward to shoots- instead, i dread what's attached to them; what comes after... the editing... i don't know if it's a matter of caring maybe far too much, but i literally feel the life and energy get drained out of me after a retouching session... not to mention, i can slave away all those hours only to end up with inconsistent looking images, as i'm editing/grading each one individually vs. batch editing.
i've got to be doing something wrong in all of this... surely there are some steps i can be taking to even just slightly expedite this process. retouching, i get there's not a whole lot i can do to shave down, but the grading/editing part?
i know whatever it is will require some study and a learning curve, but if it can save some of my time and sanity, it'd be well worth it.
and from a business perspective, when i consider what my sessions cost on average and how much time and effort i put into them, i just don't see it as being good for me.
i do still love shooting, but shoot much less for the love/passion of it these days as the post-processing attached to paid work totally burns me out, and i don't want to pile on more of it, even if it's a passion project. it's crazy how even images that come straight out of camera looking solid can still require significant work to really get exactly where you want them, and i'm super ocd, so can't live with myself if i know i haven't squeezed every ounce out of the image to get it as close to my idea of perfect as possible for what it is.
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